Dusk at Dawn.

[chatterbug]

I have retired cutterbug on the forums. That part of my life is now over. I am now known as chatterbug. I have the gift of the gab. Who would have guessed an Irish Man could talk and talk and talk...

I am at peace with the end of my marriage. I am at peace with my past. I have surrounded myself with people who I love and who love me.

I am using DB and the knowledge and wisdom here on all my relationships in my life. And I have noticed that many good relationships with friends have improved leaps and bounds. My new friendships with my DB friends are so special to me. My support group, my friends. I smile and get tear eyed when I think of the unconditional love you good people have given me. I will continue to give my unconditional love to you as well.

So now where do I go?

Over the last week I have realized that my heart and mind are in the same spot at the same time. Not just the heart or mind. I have 3 more cords to cut with ladybug.
1. A jack and Jill this saturday ( pre wedding party )
2. Wedding on May 2nd
3. Sell house.

I am very proud to say that I did not close my heart and become bitter. I actually believe that this time in my life has laid the foundations for me to improve and survive and thrive in the next half of my life. I will battle complacency and seek help when I falter. I will show my emotions for I am proud of who I am and I am proud to be a man. I have found my nuts. And I will continue to learn about boundaries for the rest of my life. I also know now that I will be able to freely give my heart away again. I can laugh again. That feels so good hearing laughter coming from me. I understand the risks that come with that choice. But one day that will be a choice that I freely make. And if it does not work out. I know I will be fine. I came here to save my marriage. But something better happened. I saved myself. And I thank this site and the people here from the bottom of my heart and soul. And special thank-yous to my close friends on the Alt.

THANKYOU


So where do I go?

Well I am going to move over to the big D one day soon. Perhaps when 2 of the 3 cords get cut.

Life is Good. I have a smile on my face. My eyes are open. And a big heart.