Irma, I have told you my story..... And yes I would have done things very differently....Had I known then what I know now. But hindsight is always 20/20. Many decisions that were made were emotional, based on fear and guilt and my faith. Looking back on those years when he was gone, I was a wreck. I stopped living and only existed. I had a therapist, I had the DB board and lots of meds. I lived on a diet of coffee and cigarettes. I weighed a little over 100 pounds. I kept waiting for the divorce papers to arrive and kept trying to accept my new reality, which was thrown to me by my Husband.
Irma, I would never had let him come home without conditions. I would have asked questions. It was wrong for me to have to walk on eggshells for so long and keep waiting for him to become comfortable in his own skin. We should have gone through councelling and he should have seen a therapist.
He has been home for almost 3 years now and yes we are doing fine but it could have been a much easier journey had I followed my gut.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
