I think I'd rather be dead than this- WAW

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Gh31- I visited Dr. Willard Harley's website. I read about plan "A" and plan "B." He says that plan B typically needs a positive plan A experience for it to be attractive after plan B has been put into place. In a round about way I did disclose a plan A to her, but I'm not sure it was portrayed appropriately enough to be attractive to her - haha.

I'm still checking out that "other" site and will continue to do so - a lot of great info there.

My L drew up all of the paperwork for me today. She gave it to me to take to the CH and file. I can apply for a filing fee waiver and save $ this way.

I asked L if there could be any negative impact to me exposing. She said it would only make me look like and a$$ by doing so. She said that if I did it and my W made a comment in court like, "he told my boyfriend's W that we were having an affair..." the judge may also view me as an a$$ and not be so willing to grant me spousal support. When the L said this I kinda laughed and wondered if she heard what she just said ("he told my boyfriends's W we were have'n and affair" -haha), but her opinion/experience make my concern antenna go up (what doesn't concern me right?).

I really feel a need to expose though. I want to expose to my MIL, BIL, one of W's friends that I am close to (he may know already but I want him to know I know and I want to hear what he has to say about it), and to OMW.

I could always wait until the spousal support thing gets going but it seems that the more time that passes the less impact exposing will have. Also, I think exposing before she gets served would look less pathetic on my part.