Hey Bradley, I think I have posted to you a couple of times.
You have heard from three of my very good, wise friends - Trapt, Cat and Mach. Listen to them, they know of what they speak.
Look, you are feeling all the things you should be feeling at some point in your journey.
Here's the thing. There is no short cut through this, no crystal ball, no going around it, no wishing on a star.
Only way out is through.
So, it's ok to feel angry, sad, regret, impatience and all that. Those are the feelings that are going to get you moving if you let them. But they are also the feelings that can keep you stuck, if you let them.
This stuff is hard. Really freakin' hard. Looking at yourself with a magnifiying glass is not for the weak of heart.
And I can't promise you this is going to end the way you want it to.
But, as someone who has been on this journey a long time and who started from a very bad place, I can absolutely promise you this....
If you focus on you (and your children, of course), and the things you want to change about you, you will come out of this a better person, a stronger person - without a doubt.
So, put your marriage in a box right now, and store it safely away.
And resolve to do the work. Really do the work.
You can do this. One day at a time. Dont look at the big picture. Dont look at what ifs and should haves.
Start with one thing. One thing that you want to change about yourself. And then figure out how to go about that.
It has to be real, though. It has to be for you. It has to be something you really and truly want to change because you know in your heart and soul that it's necessary in order for you to be the person you were meant to be.
Have you noticed I am talking all about you? Not your marriage, not your wife. YOU. One thing, one day.
