"h gave me the i can only be your friend, i love you but we've done to much to eachother. maybe later i could but....
same crap he's said 3 times before. yes i love you jstar i want my family"
No he's essentially saying that he doesn't want responsibility. He's putting all the blame on the "two of you" so he doesn't have to bear the blame all by himself. Isn't he so considerate to share the burden with you? BS!
You are letting him control the situation. Turn it around and grab the reins. What do YOU want? What can YOU control?
"how am i to have him be friend and feel ok?"
The fact is that you DON'T feel okay. That's how he wants you to feel. BS again! When he says how he wants to be "friends" with you, just show him the hand and say, "uh, we're more than friends, we're actually married." Then walk away. Don't say it angrily, just matter of factly.
He'll try to get you into an argument, but don't let him. Cease control. Imagine him as a spoiled little boy who wants things done HIS way. And when he doesn't get his way, he throws a tantrum. So what do you do? You just ignore it.
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