how can i sit here and do nothing?

i can't get my boy to his dr appointments.

h gave me the i can only be your friend, i love you but we've done to much to eachother. maybe later i could but....

same crap he's said 3 times before. yes i love you jstar i want my family

Me 39 H 30
d 18 previous marriage
d 2.5 with H
s 4.5months with H
Seperation Nov09
july i'm dim to dark - set internal deadline