I have retired cutterbug on the forums. That part of my life is now over. I am now known as chatterbug. I have the gift of the gab. Who would have guessed an Irish Man could talk and talk and talk...
I am at peace with the end of my marriage. I am at peace with my past. I have surrounded myself with people who I love and who love me.
I am using DB and the knowledge and wisdom here on all my relationships in my life. And I have noticed that many good relationships with friends have improved leaps and bounds. My new friendships with my DB friends are so special to me. My support group, my friends. I smile and get tear eyed when I think of the unconditional love you good people have given me. I will continue to give my unconditional love to you as well.
So now where do I go?
Over the last week I have realized that my heart and mind are in the same spot at the same time. Not just the heart or mind. I have 3 more cords to cut with ladybug. 1. A jack and Jill this saturday ( pre wedding party ) 2. Wedding on May 2nd 3. Sell house.
I am very proud to say that I did not close my heart and become bitter. I actually believe that this time in my life has laid the foundations for me to improve and survive and thrive in the next half of my life. I will battle complacency and seek help when I falter. I will show my emotions for I am proud of who I am and I am proud to be a man. I have found my nuts. And I will continue to learn about boundaries for the rest of my life. I also know now that I will be able to freely give my heart away again. I can laugh again. That feels so good hearing laughter coming from me. I understand the risks that come with that choice. But one day that will be a choice that I freely make. And if it does not work out. I know I will be fine. I came here to save my marriage. But something better happened. I saved myself. And I thank this site and the people here from the bottom of my heart and soul. And special thank-yous to my close friends on the Alt.
THANKYOU
So where do I go?
Well I am going to move over to the big D one day soon. Perhaps when 2 of the 3 cords get cut.
Life is Good. I have a smile on my face. My eyes are open. And a big heart.
Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul. unconditional love is awesome!
Cutter / Chatter ... the smelly stuff with the W never really ends does it There is always one more thing that you have to do that they are around or one more thing that they will be attending or one more friend on Facebook that they try to add
Will we ever finally get peace and closure?
It's good to see you moving on. I will be joining you over at the Big D soon.
Me 36, W 34 | D 8 | M 3.5y Sep 2Aug09 | Left 6Sep09 | OM in 10Oct09 | NC 17Nov09 | Gave up caring - Jan 2010
"Have integrity. Do what is right, not what is expedient." "Delay is the antidote for anger"
