OK, folks, I had a "not long enough" chat today w/G in the alt, and I've made a decision.
Like it or not, I'm continuously fighting depression, despair, etc..., and existing within the framework of rejection. My family may function like this cute little American (apple pie) family, but two of us are miserable, and at this point, one of the two of it is causing it. I own my responsibility for getting us here, but have worked to make things right WAY too long to let this continuously quick sand me.
So, I am going to face my fears, and I am going to communicate w/my H, even though he's going to be unwilling to hear it. I've been productive during my runs, and I've been praying for the "words" (talking points), and I'm getting there.
My S12 turns into S13 in a few weeks, and as soon as his birthday is out of the way, I will "woman up" and communicate my displeasure of our current circumstances, and enforce some much needed requirements for us going forward.
Just help me keep my chin up for the next few weeks, and then be prepared to hold my hand shortly after.
Thank you all.
And quit talkin' about bacon! I'm starving here!
Last edited by mindfull; 03/01/1009:45 PM.
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
