I think I'd rather be dead than this- WAW

[Quart9]

Thank you GH31. I had to look up scarpered BTW -haha! Yes I know how those "chats" go. The chat that I had with my W that night was the worst one for me. I couldn't believe she could be so matter of fact when it came to telling me how she wanted to be with him and there was no chance for her and I. I was in such shock. At one point I had to get up and walk away from the table. When I came back she was sitting there emotionless sipping her beer - like we had just been talking about the weather or something.

Yep it is crazy how a lot of the sitch's on here are so similar. Different characters, different circustances, but so often the same story with unfortunate common endings.

I have tried to put myself in my wife's shoes. I understand how feelings change but I don't understand how someone you have known so long, been through so much with, and shared so much with can turn into someone you don't even know, treat you so coldly, and drop you so easily to pursue another.

I have been praying today that I am making the right decision to file for the D. I have been rounding up the necessary docs and filling out the needed paper work this morning. Only a couple of hours now before I meet with the L.

I know I should not have done this but I sent her a text last night to tell her good night in the way I used to. No response from her of course, but I kinda looked at it as the last time I might do so for a while/maybe ever.