While this sounds childish I think what I struggled with the most (and still do to an extent) is how "dictated to" I felt. I was told what was going to happen and that was that and I just had to follow along like it or not. Then you start piling on the financial crap and it just becomes maddening ON TOP of being painful.

It is very frustrating when considerable assets are at stake that took many, many years to build. It's not as if we happen to find somebody passing out money and that is how our assets came to be. We worked and saved for all of this and for me that is the hard part I guess.

A while back I was at the copy center for what seemed like the 100th time and I just felt like screaming. If I looked at one more statement, one more insurance booklet, one more ANYTHING I felt like I would just lose my mind.

I wish I had a magic remedy for you. All I can say is what I tell myself each day... "keep plugging along".