Oh, yeah. I got the phone message this morning of "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't sleep all night, I don't want to hurt your feelings, etc."
I returned her call later, she said nothing's changed, she wants to move ahead. I said stop worrying. The 4th or 5th time around on the merry-go-round, you start to recognize the scenery.
She acknowledged it's the same thing, I was becoming more distant, she's processing moving out of the house, we sat down and starting talking about each missing our "best friends", etc.
I think we both acknowledged that the crap that's happened over the past couple of months - the conflict, the anger, etc. is really all BS, distracting from the core issue, which has been our intimate connection.
I guess in other words, I'm tired of being angry.
I don't know, maybe this is all coming out as cavalier. I hope not. But, nothing changes - and this time I didn't expect it to change. The funny thing is, without that expectation, seems like we could talk a whole lot better. Well, I could anyway, she still experienced a whole lot of anxiety.
Lotus - thanks for the response. Yep.
V1olin - sounds like you're in a good space. Good!
