how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

i think for sure that in the event that my H wanted to work things out, he would have a very hard road not only with me, but with my family as well. my mother has already assured me that if i let him back into my life, there is no way to convince her that this will not happen again. she has PROMISED me he would leave again and again. when my mother has a complaint, respect is out the door. my dad is a little more on the rational side and my sister has said she'd support whatever my decision is, but yeah, my mom has pretty much wiped her hands of my M and my H and has already told me to move on. i said, mom, would you like me to file for D tomorrow and go on a date next week? what am i doing right now if i'm not working on moving forward?

trust me, OTM, if i had a dollar for every time i walked away from one of my mother's rants...i could retire by now. she is rock steady in her approach and there is NO STOPPING HER once she gets going. she'd follow me to the next room just so that i can continue to hear what she has to say. because SHE IS RIGHT. always.

ugggggggggggggggh.