no idea what to do pt. 2

[gman]

well all has been quiet on the home front for past two weeks, until today. (original sitch was getting a bit long - in my siggy)

simple question i probably should not have asked blew up in my face and now i think i am really back to square one.

i asked if she had thought about working on "us" and she looked at me and laughed "are you kidding" - "you have not changed", "you think reading a few books and exercising is going to change you?".

felt like a my heart just got ripped out all over again. i love this woman so much by am at a point where i don't know what to do anymore. I know this DB stuff is hard and a long road, but the lack of love (both emotionaly and physical) is really taking it's toll on me.

i keep getting back up, dusting myself off and getting back on the road...but i sure feel like a doormat lately.