I was going to continue with my story yesterday, but it wasn't to be. How can I be so at peace with the situation and thinking, OK I'm past the worst, I'm strong, I can be patient - I thought that I was finally there.....and yesterday I just crumbled again. Crying, feeling this incredible sadness, hurt....missing him so much....
I'm looking at my daughter and realizing how much she misses our family life and how our life has changed. WH seams to think that she is OK when he texts her few times a week and takes her to lunch occasionaly and brings her presents from his visit trips with the OW. GRRRRR.
She is 16, not an easy time under the best of circumstances, she is going through her own teen dramas and that's plenty for her to deal with at that age. I'm so sorry this is happening to her, I want to make it all better for her but I can't. I know she misses her daddy, our family life the way it used to be. I know she is angry with him and judges him for his affair.
Our home was always welcoming, warm and full of love, my daughter's friends used to "hang out" here all the time, there were plenty of laughs and conversations, they would have dinners with us.... Now she hardly brings anyone over, she is escaping this big empty house and going to her friend's instead. I guess it makes her forget. I'm so angry at him for doing this to her.
Sorry I just had to vent. But just so you know I'm putting on a happy face for him......
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
