I'm just feeling completely hopeless today. It has been a week since I've done the DB and all I keep replaying over in my mind is all the things my husband has said to me over the past year. "It's just not there any more." "I'm not atrratcted to you and I can't help it." "I want to be excited when I come home." "I love you but I'm not in love with you." "I dont think I can try anymore".
It is all very confusing because he has said he doesnt want to try anymore but hasn't left. He is still affectionate (to a point) - kissing my forehead, asking for a hug, etc. These are obviously good things but it is confusing because if he doesnt want to be married to me or to try why does he keep this up.
He never initiates sex unless he is drunk and then it literrally last about 2 minutes. When I inititate I almost always get turned away or he can't maintain an erection which he has made very clear is my problem and not his. He apparently didnt have that problem when he was with prosistues and having an affair.
I am overweight and Ive deperately been trying to lose but I have PCOS which has made it very difficult for any weight to come off. I have been on weight watchers for a month and excersiing 5 days a week and have only lost 1 poound.
This whole thing is mainly confusing because he says one thing but then kind of does another.
