Cat - I doing pretty well. I had a great weekend with my D. Yesterday, I took her to a birthday party and then we went up to a freinds lake house to spend the night. W is apparently upset that I did not ask for permission. I suspect that we will have a confrontation tonight about it. My plan is to remain calm but also stand my ground. I guess I will need to implement a boundary tonight but who knows.

I have also decided to continue to pursue going back to school. The reality is that I cannot allow her to control my actions anymore. I need to do for me what I need to do. I picked up a great book - The 5 love languages - this weekend and continue to work on me. More and more I can see my issues and quite frankly I am proud of the working that I am doing in myself.

I replayed the conversation in my head between W and I re: going back to school and the reality is that I feel she is upset that I am doing work on myself. I feel like she wants me to stay as I was and probably cannot understand why I am changing since she does not feel like I was able to. I actually understand her point but this cannot stop me from continuing to be the best person that I can be.

Also, in terms of the bonus that I have mentioned on these boards - I have decided to divert some of it in the event that I need to protect myself and my kids. I want to be with them as much as possible (another reason why I will remain in the house) and need to have funds available should I need to fight for them. This is what Eric wants.

Oh...BTW - how was your weekend?

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