I find myself saying that a lot too, I appreciate so much all the support my friends have provided but frankly they don't know what it's like and I am thankful for that. I tell them that too. I use to be so scared of divorce, and I'm becoming more accepting of it now. I've realized it seems as though there are more of us that are, or soon to be divorced than not it seems. That's sad but reality.
I find too that small things can set me off into an emotional spell of feeling angry, alone, scared, but mostly lonely. The last week or so I've struggled with the fact that how in the hell can my H not care if he loses his family- me and son. I just can't wrap my head around it but the fact that he isn't fighting for us tells me everything I need to know. Still working on my decree (thank you bbj again).....
I'm going on my lunch today to buy Journey From Abandoment to Healing - Suan Anderson. I'm hoping the book will provide me with some peace and knowledge.
Small related fact to your phone...my H is no longer listed in my favorites...it's weird to search for him in my phone (when needed) but nonetheless he isn't a favorite.
I'm glad you're doing better Lol.....most days I wonder how I'd manage without these boards, all you people who support, who know just what this feels like. Afterall, I think all of us just want to relate.
but reality.
