Good morning to those of you up early and reading this post. I am here not to vent, but to write down my thoughts as they help me continue to stay dark and have NC.
I really wondering if my H's visit on Saturday was a missed opportunity? I know OP said that he really wanted to reach out, he would find a way.
I am wondering if his calls to me Friday was him reaching out. It is really difficult for me to believe anything my H says. However, he has been consistent about the D word, so am I just not seeing it?
Or is he looking for me to demonstrate changes and not to talk about what happened "six years ago". While I find it utterly crazy for him to been seeking changes in me, isn't that what going dark and NC is suppose to achieve?
If I am not calling, texting, or seeing him, then it is the opposite of what I have normally done..
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
It is difficult to decide what to do nc or not I always had such a hard time with figuring out the right strategy just try to take care of yourself eat, exercise, pray rest and sleep talk to a few trusted friends or go to Counseling read trust yourself you will know what strategy to try or keep sometimes I would go NO or dim xh would try to connect--I would not answer then sometimes I would be available very supportive of him..listening caring ect but either way..did not work for me XH still saw the cahnges and left to pursue his journey I havw kept the changes now and they are very beneficial in all my R all my R are working so this journey is for us lwearn all you can about MLC manke whatever changes make sense probaly for me being available to my xh was helpful for my change I am glad we got to converse many times in the new me going dark was beneficial for me to detatch peace
married 14 years H 42 bomb 2/07 IDLYA D final 3 /09 M ow D ow
Long, but good day at work. No H drama today and insane panic attacks from me. I would say that is a good day.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
Thank you CW. I am trying to celebrate the good days because it helps remind me that I can and will be okay.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
H called my work again today. I did not answer. Still dark. Haven't checked messages. I will do so tomorrow.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
I am in tears.... My H just called work (from a different number) and told me this...
"I'd like to come by tomorrow during the day to get copies of papers, etc. I though I could also inventory everything in the house so we can use the list to divide stuff up."
Says he is not my H anymore... What do I do? I am so lost and hurt. It is unbearable.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
