Good morning to those of you up early and reading this post. I am here not to vent, but to write down my thoughts as they help me continue to stay dark and have NC.

I really wondering if my H's visit on Saturday was a missed opportunity? I know OP said that he really wanted to reach out, he would find a way.

I am wondering if his calls to me Friday was him reaching out. It is really difficult for me to believe anything my H says. However, he has been consistent about the D word, so am I just not seeing it?

Or is he looking for me to demonstrate changes and not to talk about what happened "six years ago". While I find it utterly crazy for him to been seeking changes in me, isn't that what going dark and NC is suppose to achieve?

If I am not calling, texting, or seeing him, then it is the opposite of what I have normally done..

OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty
Me 44
H 51
T 15 yrs
M 9+ yrs
No Kids
"You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."