Thanks Pearl & Aver, been mulling the way I'm feeling over all day and I think I've got it. Not so much to do with me & W as the kids.
Since the bomb and W leaving I've been the only constant and the rock in their lives and I guess I probably overcompensated with the kids as my way of saying "Hey this is (partly) my fault, how can I make it up to you guys" and have spoilt them thru guilt on my part.
Have talked to the 2 younger ones and we are in agreement that I need to let them do their own thing and be more responsible and they have to take up that responsibility and run with it.
H: 44 W: 42 Married: 23 years Bomb: 16/07/2009 PA Confirmed: 16/01/2010 Over it & working on ME: Feb'ish 2010