H. has never, ever, ever raised a hand to me prior to this. H was extremely remorseful the following day, and I believe that this was a one time occurrence. H was extremely ashamed, and told me about prior GF's that threw dishes, hit him, etc and how he didn't react in kind. Again, it was a slap and my poor response was to punch him numerous times. H took it and did not slap, hit, threaten.
I'm afraid b/c the last time I went NC on H, he was clearly depressed when we talked again. Like my silence exacerbated his depression. I had planned on at least a month of NC, more likely 2. But in this state, now I'm not so sure if that is the best option.
I am so ashamed and confused now. I had planned on NC for 4 - 8 weeks, but now am unsure of how to proceed. H has been confiding in our mutual friend, who apparently is no longer my friend, so I am unsure about trying to contact him.
M & H: 40 M: 5.5 T: 7.5 OW: 7/09 Bomb: 9/09 Sep: 3/10 H files 7/10
