Try not to beat yourself up too much. Yes, you were in a fog, a controlling fog. In order to survive mentally and emotionally, you had to see the abnormal as normal. People in abusive situations adopt that point of view as a survival mechanism.
Now that you have some time away from the sitch, it's easier--and safer--to see the truth. You're working towards a new, healthier normal.
It doesn't matter what you did, you are a beautiful, smart, valuable person. You can't change the past, you can only write today, so put your energy there.
SD
Me: 40 H: 43 H had EA from 2/06-9/06 Bomb 5/06 Piecing since 9/2006 3/2008: Boundary setting 7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb. 8/2010: Marriage finally on track!
