1) I decided I was officially home today. I made my family's spaghetti sauce for the first time since leaving H, and D17 and I had a wonderful rigatoni dinner. I also managed to burn myself when the sauce splattered- rather typical, Bunny is known for being a klutz and hurting herself... (My finger still hurts- it blistered immediately. That sauce is d@mn hot!) I made enough to put in the freezer for four more dinners.
2) I got a serious knot in my stomach while reading the thread about the web-cam/cyber-sex activities. I was caught off-guard by the strong reactions to it- I think it pointed out my warped sense of reality. As part of our "open" sex-life, I did web-cam activities or sex-chatted with these unseen guys with H's knowledge and encouragement- sometimes he even joined me on cam to put on a show. I know that nobody was saying anything about me, but I had a sense of shame while reading the responses: "a disgusting act", "degenerate, depraved behavior"- yikes, ouch... Another reminder that our M was not normal. Why the he!! did I go along with that? I don't even remember how some of this stuff started- I was rather fogged out myself. A different kind of fog, but fog nonetheless.
