flowmom | shifting from devastated to rebuilding

[flowmom]

H is gone for the day and I didn't "talk" with him. Thanks for talking me down from the ledge friends .

Actually something that helped me was that I reached a DB "goal" tonight. I was enthusiastically telling H about the hockey game and he smiled (not looking at me though) because it was so absurd that I was showing any enthusiasm for sports. H smiling was one of my "goals". That encouraged me to focus on the babysteps and not the big picture.

So what did I do to pave the way for H to smile? I was doing a 180 and I was expressing myself more freely (I had had one beer a few hours ago...what can I say I'm a cheap drunk). It was a 180 from the same old/same old that we've been stuck in lately...both of us super polite but somewhat wary.

The evening was topped off by D3 projectile vomiting over every item of her bedding, my clothing, her clothing, and her hair. The joys of parenthood.