Thanks, Flowmom, I'm doing my best. You're doing fine; remember your journey is on YOUR timetable, now, not his. As long as you focus on yourself, you'll continue to grow and change. Also remember things will be fine NO matter what happens; even if it doesn't look like it now.
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About a week after he moved out, I asked (for the second time) if there was on OW involved in our sitch. With a bitter tone of voice, he replied "I wish. It would make this a lot easier for me". I believe that he said that truthfully and impulsively. But of course he could have been lying. Also, about 2 weeks ago he mentioned a hypothetical scenario of him dating but clarified that he wasn't yet. I'm assuming that he will be in a sexual relationship soon, if not already.
He was actually lying to hurt you for asking him that, but on the other hand, unless an opportunity presents itself, it is unlikely he might fall in that pit. I'm really hoping he doesn't do the dating thing; as he doesn't realize it's dangerous not only to himself, but damaging to you, as well.
No matter what you've faced in the past, OW HURTS really bad; and it brings up feelings within you that you'd rather not have; and it would complicate an already complicated situation.
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H doesn't drink or do drugs. He has used relationship/sex melodrama in an addictive way to deal with pain and grief before though. He did come to understand this about himself so it will be interesting to see if he goes there again (if he hasn't already).
Again, let's hope not; as I remember it, though; sexual temptation is one of the "tests" the MLC'er can face. It is possible to "go back" to an old addiction that was kicked before; that is why I mentioned the drugs, alcohol, etc.
My husband failed his in two ways..Pornography and the OW he had during that time. He'd had an addiction to Porn when we first married, and it resurfaced during his MLC. You're hanging tough and that says a great deal for you.
I keep drawing from memories; and hope this helps.
Hang in there, Flowmom, one day at a time. When this will pass, I don't know, but eventually, it will.
Take care and keep me posted.
Remember, as each person is different, every MLC/Transition is different..what works for one may not work for another. Most of the time it is trial and error for ALL involved.
You're doing fine; remember your journey is on YOUR timetable, now, not his. As long as you focus on yourself, you'll continue to grow and change. Also remember things will be fine NO matter what happens; even if it doesn't look like it now. 
