The journey begins

[ClingingToHope]

Your rates are way better filing together and we are splitting it 50/50. W has not filed a tax return. I'm doing it. Next year she's on her own.

I'll make sure I get my half by having the money deposited at my bank and then sending her her share. That's the advantage of me doing the taxes.

I just got off the phone with W over the babysitter stuff and when the conversation is over my stomach just goes into knots.

At church today, they talked today more about being "The Me I Want To Be." The Me I Want to Be loves everyone and wishes no one troubles. The Me that I am still has a lot of bitterness and anger today. And I had a great weekend.

Another friend last night told me she's been divorced for six years and now feels nothing towards her ex. She even knitted a blanket for the ex's new baby boy he's having with the woman he cheated on her with in the first place.

I know I've come a long way in 10 months, but I just can't ever imagine feeling nothing. I just so wish I didn't have to see or talk to her. I wish I could just wipe the slate clean.