Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

Hi, Mila! Thanks for coming out of the dark, lol! And thank you too CW...

Ok I am all right now- phew! I actually did stop exercising, took a nap, and read parts of Divorcebusting to re-motivate myself. Now I am better! I'm glad I didn't let WH see me like that- my DB coach says to leave if you are feeling grumpy or depressed so they don't see it.

WH stayed upbeat, talked a lot about working on the yard, getting the chainsaw out (started reading the manual) and tried to play with both S and I.

The book reminded me that progress may be slow, and the signs may be little but they still count- so if we see some changes, keep noting them and see if they culminate to something big! Also, if what I am doing is working (meaning delaying the divorce) than I am supposed to keep doing it! But the book did remind me that I should be giving some positive signs or "throwing him a bone" every now and then because it will create a chain reaction.

I decided that from now on, I will greet him with enthusiasm and say goodbye with meaning, lol! I noticed today when he came in, I said "Hi!" (like I was happy to see him) and he lit up and said "hi!" right back.

I had some other thoughts but need to tend to S- however I had good news because I put on my size 14 jeans and they fit!! Yay-I will be able to wear my 12s in another 15 pounds!