flowmom | shifting from devastated to rebuilding

[flowmom]

Thanks everyone. I actually had fun with my friend. We watched a movie, merged with the downtown crowds celebrating the hockey win, then had a late dinner and drink.

Then I stupidly did my checking-up-on-H on FB ritual and got really worried. A young attractive woman posted a comment on H's FB wall three days ago and signed it "xoxo". Didn't know what to think, but some women are like that. Then today, her post has disappeared! More digging:
- she lives in our city
- she is at a competitive level in H's sport so they definitely have probably met many times and H is also a big fish in a small pond in the sport so there would be mutual admiration there
- he added her as "friend" on his first day on FB (he started after our separation)

I just think that's wierd that her post would have disappeared. The only thing that I can think of would be the woman "marking her territory" by posting on his wall...then him getting her to remove her post because, after all, many people including his mother reads his FB page. Why else would the post disappear?

Ugh. More worry. I wish I knew for sure.

Now it's super late and my entire family is sleeping in a place that I'm not allowed to go to. And I'm going to sleep. Now.