Feel like crap today …slept in till 2:00, CJ picked up McDonalds’ breakfast and kept mine warm in the stove. (those griddle cakes a amazing! ) Was very solicitous this morning, spooned me in bed, brought me water.
Later on in the back room I had the letter I’d written last night and told him if he wanted to see what I was feeling last night that there it was. So he read it.
The first thing he said was “Thank you for writing this.” Then he said “As for your points A through D…I’d add E) the timing was bad. I validated this whole heartedly, he’s right, from his POV the timing did suck.
He didn’t add much in terms of how he DID/DOES feel about the printout…but asked for some clarification on my feelings. What did I mean by “his feelings were too dangerous to share”…I explained that he could have read that and wished he’d never pursued an R with me….he assured me this was not the case.
He came over to my chair and hugged me, told me I Love you, I responded in kind.
We’re both feeling drained and tired…probably WON’T make it to B and J’s for darts tonight. CJ’s heading out to buy ingredients to make his roasted red pepper sauce…we’re going to try to watch NEMO before it’s due back tonight.
Give me a cyber-punch in the nose if you want to, but the letter sounds a little like you're being his therapist and maybe that's why he said he felt like he was being interrogated. (I was also going to suggest that you refrain from the mention of K and your X, sticking to the GOOD feelings that came up for you, but you already had him read it before getting feedback here).
I am still coming to terms with the way most men aren't well equipt to identify their emotions, much less verbalize them. Maybe I expect too much, because I've had men in my life that are who are fluent in that area.
I felt like you put CJ on the spot, he blanked and probably felt like he was given a pop quiz first thing in the morning before a cup of coffee, LOL!
) Was very solicitous this morning, spooned me in bed, brought me water.
