mb, there are aspects to NC with your H that have not been mentioned in awhile.
After a week or 2, the peace will return to your life. Everything will slow down a bit and your head will begin to clear. (It seems you are in what's been called "the BS fog".) Not meant to be an insult...many of us have been there. You will wonder why you fought it so hard. As time goes on, the stress and obsessing stop. You can focus on you and the kids, rather than just going through the motions. AND, you can keep your loving feelings for your H. Constantly trying to convince him, will destroy those feelings. He will begin to pursue you more. You have felt a bit of this, and it was great, right! Make him pursue until he says the magic words I just posted for nm. "I dumped the ho".
Right now, he has you on the end of a string that he can jerk to see if you are still there.
It will be ok. Commit to 1 month and then re-evaluate. I'll bet you won't have to wait that long. There is a funny u-tube thing that I will go find for you. BBS
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