I know I have come in here at times and sounded so pathetic... I look at my posting and wonder why the heck did I post that but we come here to vent...get it off our chest ......cry get 2x4'd....but when I get off this board I feel better at least I didnt call him......havent done that in a while a very long while I come here and do as I have in the past just post my feelings.....isnt it whay we are here to let off steam here instead of our spouses...... Yes I know it wont be a bed of roses and it will be even harder when they do come home......I have to say there are times when I do wonder why I want him back but I know what I must do and that is stick with it till the end for better or worse isnt that what our vows say......gotta go fixinf to get off of work will post later