I know what you mean about music. I have a whole list of cheating songs on my mp3 player now. I keep thinking I should make a soundtrack that reflects my whole sitch but if I do that I may be more tempted to just walk away.
I'm glad you're feeling better and more confident. Let me reiterate that I do support people wanting to fight for their M. However I am a firm believer in facing the reality staring you in the face. Moving forward is sometimes your only option and really, it is the best option for you at this point.
I think I'm going to need a trip to SF in the spring. I'll check in with you about timing to see if you'll be in town.
If you love somebody, set them free. http://tinyurl.com/2empx2g