I've hit a wall.. Now what?

[talia]

I feel like I just got hit with a damn Tidal wave!!!

I just laughed with Spy and said "Oh Well - Its sad I can't be at his beck and call... Pesky Job" and left it at that!! I've been VERY clear with spy - overly clear - that I'm done with H - he's not worth my time - I don't think he deserves one second of my thoughts.. That I am done done done. NONE of these back and forth emotions are things he see's - I can't trust him! The benefit - spy reads H very well and gives good insight in general - I just no longer care about what that insight might allow me to do...
He does know that I'm going out with men I've met at various hobby like functions recently... but I'm not calling them dates.

I can't trust spy so I only share things I want H to know/hear. I think its ironic the min I DON'T care how he communicates he makes a big deal about communication the way I've wanted him to for 6 months!! I CAN'T WIN....Selfish ingrate...

I AM NOT HIS SECRETARY.....