Of course, one big exciting thing is that I leave for Phoenix tomorrow and Las Vegas Sunday morning! Now if only the kids' clothes would pack themselves...I also am going to get to do something I have wanted to do since I was five. I am going to see David Copperfield live. I am also planning a hot air balloon ride and a trip to M&M World in between convention stuff. Lots of GAL!
And then there is the other big strange development here at home. My H is being affectionate. And so I am being a little more affectionate too. I don't want to go overboard and smother him, but it is nice. He and I are going out on a date tonight, and I am just going to enjoy his company. Last night he surprised me by initiating a casual kiss. Even before the bomb that wasn't common. And we are communicating much better now too. I convey what I want without being a b*tch but also with the self-assurance that says I deserve to be listened to. One slip-up a couple nights ago - he hurt my feelings and when he asked what was wrong, I told him. Unfortunately I was crying when I answered, but I pulled it together and went on with the evening as though nothing had happened. Later he didn't exactly apologize, but he did say he hadn't intended to upset me. We're just being more...warm now. Maybe something I've been doing has worked. OH! And he noticed that I had lost weight when he got home ad told me I looked nice. I really didn't think he would even pay attention. I had decided to lose the weight for me, but it was still really nice to hear that he could tell.
So I'm just a bit confused. One of my older and wiser friends suggests that maybe he is seeing the error of his ways and wants to pull away from OW. But I'm not ready for that kind of optimism yet. He's still talking to her pretty much every day as of two weeks ago (the most recent detailed phone bill). And I admit, it does get under my skin that he calls her before he calls me. But I suppose that is to be expected anyway. I am enjoying this friendlier warmer H, and I guess I'll just wait and see. I am a bit worried that suggesting MC will ruin the improvements, but I also think it would be a good step if he agrees.
I won't be doing much posting until at least next Friday, but possibly more like Tuesday the 8th. After I get back from my trip we turn around and go camping with my cousins that weekend. Oof! At least I won't have to wash and repack the same clothes. I do have a new iphone, but it's a pain to type long messages with it! I also have decided to leave every part of my emotional turmoil at home, so I hope I won't need to be posting on here while I'm gone. "See" you all as soon as I get back!
undefeated 24 H 24 S's 4, 2, 1 M 5 yrs
"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all." ~Dale Carnegie
Last night he surprised me by initiating a casual kiss. Even before the bomb that wasn't common. And we are communicating much better now too. I convey what I want without being a b*tch but also with the self-assurance that says I deserve to be listened to. One slip-up a couple nights ago - he hurt my feelings and when he asked what was wrong, I told him. Unfortunately I was crying when I answered, but I pulled it together and went on with the evening as though nothing had happened. Later he didn't exactly apologize, but he did say he hadn't intended to upset me. We're just being more...warm now. Maybe something I've been doing has worked. OH! And he noticed that I had lost weight when he got home ad told me I looked nice. I really didn't think he would even pay attention. I had decided to lose the weight for me, but it was still really nice to hear that he could tell.