Stark, I know it's difficult, but stop following her on Facebook. It's only going to make things worse for you and in your mind.
If you're not ready to file for D, then don't do it.
That is great that you're there for your sick friend.
Since you're having an especially bad day, plan something for youself this weekend. Ddoesn't have to be anything extravagant... just grab a bite to eat with a friend, take a long hot shower, or just rent a movie that makes you laugh.
