I hear you- do whatever you need to do to get your spirits up- so long as it's not self-destructive...I blew up big time through this...
The NC actually makes it easier I find. I'll tell ya- the way things were for me for 6 months I think it would have been better that W just left immediately,
I've read other posts about people going into 007 spy mode and I hate it- I became a different person- I am a little embarrassed by it too.
Hang in there, have a great weekend, hope the weather works out for you
