I've talked to her 2 times this morning and yes she is talking about termination. I asked her point blank:
Do you want to terminate because you think that is the only way I'll take you back? Her answer was "I think that will help us and the other reason is because if I have this baby I/we will always have to deal with OM and I don't want that".
She stated again how much she misses 'us'. Us = me, her and our daughters (her words). She wants to go on a family vacation, doesn't want to have separate bday parties for the girls (which we are in the middle of right now), etc. It's like the light has finally went on in her head what she would be giving up.
What is a little bit different in my mind and the reason I tend to believe her is that she first asked about moving back in December. I politely declined at that time and I've witnessed her 'dis' engaging from OM since. Not completely, albeit, but I know she hasn't seen him for the last 10 days or so. 10 days doesn't make up for what we've been through, but it is a step. Additionally, she's done this without me asking her.
We've got a tough road ahead. I owe it to my daughters and myself to make every effort to make it work. Worst case scenario is we end up D, which is where I thought I'd be anyway. I won't like it, but if that is where we end up. I can handle it.
In the end bro, like it or not, this is her decision, not yours, just be there to be supportive, not tell her what to do, listen to her when she wants to talk about it but just let her know that regardless of whatever decision she makes, you won't judge her and you will always make time to talk to her about this and how she feels about this.
In the end, this is all you can do about this, it's her decision to live with and your decision to support her regardless of what she chooses to do.
