I think you are doing really well and at times seem to grasp this empathic understanding which will serve you well.
I think reading her journal was an incredibly STUPID thing to do. No matter the outcome. Coming across the WRONG thing in there and all this good would have crumbled like a house build of dust.
DO NOT DO IT AGAIN. That is for you and your vulnerable and fragile state of mind. You got away with it once. Lucky.
The empathy for your wife will serve you well.
Stay this guy, this guy who hopes and understands, not the crazy over the top all or nothing guy, be consistent.
Be consistent.
Good job.
Let me address one worry in your head.
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the negative part of me thinks this is just her keeping me where she wants me...
Is your wife EVIL? Is she a willful coniving bithc? Does she hate you?
Answer yes to any of those and yes she is doing that to you on purpose. AND you should dump her ass at the nearest church for an exorcism.
Bet you answered no, though. So stop being pitiful.
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Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK
