Positive developments? #2

[jon2911]

So, I have a friend at work. Figured out fairly quickly that he's gay, and open about it. W is completely fascinated by the whole thing. For example, I ran into him at the gym on Sunday, and this week he came in saying "dude, we have got to get you some better gym clothes". LOL. I wear board shorts and a t-shirt, never thought about it.

Also, he eats very healthy food and reads all the labels. He's there with a plate of steamed brussell sprouts while we eat our typical IT worker crap. I never thought this would happen, but my friend is having an effect on me. I'm starting to realize how much I've started to let things slip.

Talking with W a couple nights ago, she said "hang out with guys like him more and you'll have a much better chance of getting remarried". I played it off, said "what, married to a guy or a girl?"

Later, falling asleep, I really started to get angry. Remarried? And I felt it was such a condescending comment. However, all this did get my attention. I've been sitting in this limbo for 2 1/2 years, just waiting for W to come back and everything to get better. I've really stopped caring about how I look, what I eat, or my house, all with the excuse that I'm separated. I'm tired of it.

The new place, even right next door, feels like a fresh start. Talks with W, even with "remarriage" jabs thrown in, have been much better lately. I feel hopeful. Thanks to a friend at work who doesn't seem to share my sexual preference