Another thing - I'm getting a new couch (used, but it's Crate and Barrel, for a steal!) and I got a new computer from H (a hand me down, but much better). Could symbolize this new direction I"m in.
Also, all my heaviness last week was also tied to that time of the month. I'm 41 now and I'm feeling PMS at least half the month! Time to get a hormone check and start dealing with the changes. I can't take the depression on top of all this stress!
It's depressing as I always wanted to have a second child. Facing this won't happen unless I give birth to the second Messiah is not fun.
