I do believe that now is the time to really detach and if you will go dark (or as dark as I can go).
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I think I need to spend some time trying to figure out what I really want and what is in the best interest for me and my kids.
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You know over the past few weeks/months it has become very apparent to me that she has emotionally detached. I really no longer have a marriage.
The truth...very good to accept this.
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Not because I do not love her but more because I love myself.
You are getting closer to were you need to be everyday
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She has made me feel like a second class husband. She has not accepted any responsiblity for any of this. She is working to position herself and I am the one trying to be nice. I do not think that I can be nice anymore. I just really fed up with her. Sorry more anger. I feel that I have grown at least in the area of making decisions when I am angry. I will take some time to think this thru but right now I feel that I may need to call it a day. My only regret is that part of me feel like I am giving up - but I cannot make her fall in love with me again - not when she is so closed off and connected to another.
This anger....healthy and natural. Do I think some of it is self-pity? Yes.....you are stronger than this. You will be nice...because you are strong. You will continue to to work on yourself and eventually not be a second class husband....YOU WILL BECOME A FIRST CLASS MAN!
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I guess this is part of the acceptance phase of grieving.
Very true....your OLD marriage is done! Whether you two reconcile or not...it is done. Now is time for bigger and better things....starting with yourself.
You are very close Eric....soon you find a lot of the answers to the questions you ask of yourself................be strong and don't give up....it is out there waiting...you just need to pay the price.
