need a little advise this morning...have plans to meet my H for dinner tonight, and some friends are planning to get together and asked me to join. do i ditch my H and tell him something else came up? i do have plans with friends tomorrow night and sunday, and i do want to see my H, but also not sure how i'm feeling about seeing him. i want to, but at the same time, it's like...what for? nothing's going to change. i have made myself overly available for his emotional needs, so he's been getting what he needs from me and meanwhile, what do i get? i've been working so hard at this DB-ing thing and am focusing on doing things for myself and then i do let myself get disappointed if i don't hear from him or even if i do and his tone isn't what i want it to be.
i'm in a grumpy mood today...i just feel like i've been doing all the work and he goes to a counselor 2 times and i'm still on standby waiting for HIM to want to work on our marriage. granted, i'm moving forward no matter what, but...i think i'm letting myself slide back into feelings of resentment and that's not a good place to be.
thoughts? advice??
Me30 H29 M2.5 T5 H moved out 1/23/2010 H wants signed agreement 3/30/2010 ...feeling hopeless
