Have been following your sitch a while back and am familiar with it and it sounds as if your STBXW has just lost it completely.
Like you I had a hard time detaching and going dark. Still do but I have gotten better.
Guess I should consider myself lucky that Im not in your shoes. But I just dont feel lucky.
Me and my XW hardly ever talk now. Been dark for two weeks now. I know, not long but it sure feels like it. Last time we talked was to let her know I was dropping off a copy of my new will to her.
I am starting to GAL now. Tried online dating and have had zero luck getting any responses. Seems 47yr old men are invisible there for some reason. And all the women there my age are dating 20 and 30yr olds.
I cant understand why these women put themselves out there and then do not respond when somebody that meets their profile emails them for a date. They could at least email back saying no thanks or something.
Im going to the races in Temple with my brothers and with my friend and her Son so we should have a good time weather permitting. Something I have never done before. Should be fun.
Take care of yourself and sorry to see you here but missery loves company LOL. So pull up a bar stool and have a beer with me.
Me:48 W:55 M:22 T:23 Bomb:19Nov09 S:15Jan10 D:11Feb10 EA:Confirmed on 20Apr10 Fast track to her divorcing me