WAH in MLC with PA

[DiamondGirl]

Just to clarify (since it was too late to edit),

But in my defense, I reverted back to the way I was raised.. by an unexpressive, strict Italian grandmother who had to be an adult herself at the age of 9 when her mom died..(My mom started back at work when I was 10 weeks old due to finances..)

When things started getting challenging in my M (almost right away) and I felt out of my element, a childhood coping skill kicked in where I never showed my emotion even though I felt it. I learned pretty quickly with my grandmother that I would get ridiculed or she would get angry when I did. I was never praised or hugged by her, only corrected abruptly. Asking for help from her almost never happened.

Also, I started to be controlling of everything because H was very unorganized and laid back with no routines and I had only lived by routine and his way made me feel out of my element. As things happened in our life, I felt more and more out of control of any part of it, so I tried to control everything to combat the feeling.

Clear as mud? LOL