I had access to H's laptop for the first time today. I went through it of course. He has some files saved from her, all dated before he "came back". What amazed me was her conviction (?) to have him. The men here will say it's a woman's thing but she was soooo persistent and even pathetic as she was trying to convince him I was the wrong choice. At the same time, I was telling him, he was free to go as he wanted all along.
She used the sex card alot. Apparently H had been saying our sex life was terrible because after she would use the kids card(!!!!), the kids will suffer in an unhealthy marriage, she would quote all sorts of books saying that a healthy sex life is important for a R. As if we didnt know that. I am now begining to worry more about our lack of intimate encounters. Because since I am still here, fighting, I want this to work. And so far, her words have come true. We have no sexual desire for each other... Got to do something about that and talking isnt gonna be it. K
PS I acted as if the whole time yesterday He brought me SPA lotions and bath milks, a really nice Tshirt, African necklaces and something for the house.
PS2 He has saved on his laptop, a few of my emails addressed to PC. The name of the file is not so "nice".
