Well, I guess, I don't HAVE to make this make me feel bad about myself. Being rejected by someone who was once relatively responsive/considerate, and thoughtful is now HELL, but I will reassess.

So, I did NOT call, did not capitulate to selfish behavior as I have for years, and fortunately had friends who were there for me, despite feeling lonely and missing my 'hair shirt' I'm gaining SuperMan strength every day by sticking to the 'plan'

Part of me wants to say: " I was waiting for so long for YOU to change, but now realize I had to change and get a life, I was living FOR you to long instead of respecting my own needs." But I won't, I guess it's not prescribed / necessary.

I will continue the difficult, ninja-style GD, as hard as it is!

Thanks!

Eternal optimist


LBS (me):48
WAW:44
Married:11 T: 16
Separated: 02/10/10
Separated: one year first time, two years ago
Sitch: http://bit.ly/baqySm