W is seeing OM this weekend; I have the boys. I guess I'm between the "that still hurts" and "it's not my business anymore and I don't care" states. Part of me wants to be disgusted, part of me realizes that she's not in this marriage anymore and it doesn't matter.
We've got a mediation appointment set up for next week. Cancelled the therapy appointment. Guess that sums it up.
Putting together in my head what this life is going to be like. Making a home for my boys, and doing it alone. Makes me sad. This isn't going to be easy, is it - one person handling everything. Guess I see myself digging in and making it work. Planning to go over to the house this weekend and start taking care of all the things she's let go to pot - spray the weeds (for God's sake, it's not that hard, and they're out of control now), mow the grass.
