not seeing the H tonight. too tired after 2 days of working until 11, but may see him tomorrow. not much contact but he has been texting to wish me luck with my work events and emailed today. something seems different in his tone, but i'm trying not to read into it too much. said he saw his counselor again last night and he liked that she asked him a lot of hard questions. i don't know where this leaves ME, though...i'm glad he's examining his own behavior and history and all that, but i'm also trying to forge forward and don't like feeling like i'm in a holding pattern. i said i would wait, and i will...but at the same time, i'm starting to feel that distance not in the "absence makes the heart grow fonder" kind of way. more like the "absence makes me feel like i don't know you anymore" kind of way.
we'll see. i may be over-reacting because i'm seriously overly-tired. his email said he did want to hear about my week and my work events, i know i shouldn't let it bother me that he didn't seem overly emotional or weepy. i clearly just need a nap. wait. first a martini, then a nap.
Me30 H29 M2.5 T5 H moved out 1/23/2010 H wants signed agreement 3/30/2010 ...feeling hopeless
