Journaling:

W has been very cheerful in interactions, but yesterday on a phone call for family business her answer to the normal greeting "How you doin'" was "cruddy".

I tried to be as supportive and validating as I could; she explained she was in a funk and got weepy. Said she hadn't done a thing all day.

She seems to be finding excuses to stop by the house or meet me and the kids out where we are. If she is feeling poorly she is hiding it well. I get the sense she is faking her cheerful mood.

Today she invited me to an event she is taking the kids to tomorrow night. I'm debating whether or not to go. There is a children's event Saturday that she is bringing the kids to that I would prefer to attend, so I was thinking of inviting myself. I doubt she would have any problem with it.

Just thinking that if she has a thought in the back of her mind that I may be getting someone else's attention, it may not hurt to cultivate that in a mysterious way.

The invitations from her have been very rare, and one thing I haven't done yet is turn one down.


WAW Using God
Me-43
W-40
M-14
S-11
S-9
D-7
EABomb 5/09
Separated 12/09