Did the conversation confirm or introduce doubt into your feeling "done" with the M?
It's odd to me. During our conversation I felt very done with it all, based on how calm I was. At one point she complained about me "living it up in New York". (If only she knew!) I could only reply that it was a sad weekend for me because I had always wanted to take her to New York with me for valentines day. This is true: we've talked about it in the past. But when I think about it, I realize that even if she had gone with me, she would've likely been resentful, gone to sleep early, and basically avoided me.
And yet, I've always had hope that she would get better, and we would bridge the emotional distance between us. Last night, that is what was on my mind, the reality that we've likely never had a good marriage, and have never done the work we should have done. I guess if I'm still thinking this way, I'm not quite done yet. But, I'm pretty close.
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